Scary Water

Deep WaterFrankly, sometimes, deep water can get pretty scary.

 

I know one of the tenets of marketing is to always present your product or service from a position of strength or authority. In other words, tell folks about the good things. About what’s working. What’s thriving. And sometimes that means “fake it ‘til you make it”. But I’ve never been a fan of that approach. I like to be transparent, and operate more personally than corporately. So it’s very much against the rules for me to post my struggles. My fears.

 

But as D-Day approaches (this Tuesday!), the reality of me quitting my long-time job and leaving the security of a regular income, is really sinking in. Over this past weekend, I’ve been sitting at home, worrying more and more about the future. Anxiety is growing. I’m biting my nails. And although I’m grateful to be weeks (in some cases, months) behind, the blessing of having a backlog of waiting business doing the things that I totally love doing, has also become a source of stress.

 

“These customers are waiting, and I can’t get caught up.”

 

I told Cretia this morning, that looking around at all the things we have to do, all the red tape we have to navigate, all the organization we’ve yet to take care of, building our shop, meeting deadlines, filing paperwork…it’s crippling. And that’s all in addition to the actual work of deconstruction, woodworking and painting. There’s just so much. A part of me wants to say “I can’t do this”.

 

But another part of me says, “I can’t get it all done, but I can get one thing done.” Then one more thing. And then one more. And one more. As they say, “What’s the best way to eat an elephant? One bite at a time.”

 

This morning, I spent a few minutes in prayer, and just confessed to the Lord that I knew I had jumped in over my head. And I did it on purpose, because I usually thrive when the water gets deep. But today, the water is a little scary. I’m letting the water intimidate me, and I need certainty.

 

Not to sound stereotypically “religious”, but the only place I know I can find the certainty I need is in the surety of Christ. I can’t make this happen. But He has already blessed our business with growth and acceptance, and now we believe He will continue. It's just what we turn to when things seem to be out of our control.

 

Thanks to all our followers and customers who choose to connect with us, not just as a business, but as people and friends. And for letting us get real when the water gets scary. :)

 

- Ricky